05.12.13 - murmur

It has been already five months since training. I've been working every Sunday, giving myself a big applause. I admit that I learnt many things, but at the same time I may have lost things as many as I obtained. Physical and mental health, room to think, time to enjoy reading, music, movie, family- and friend- gathering, appreciation about your love's love towards me, and it goes on and on.

Reading some books these days, I realized again that things are complicated. A boss bitches at every single thing that makes everyone think that he/she has no sense of social life. People are rude, they seem to be kind but when you think one step in, they give you nothing. (Of course, I didn't mean that I give them something) You can't help thinking that you get less than you deserve in a relationship. You want to leave these things behind and just head to somewhere far far away from daily life, but reality does not allow you to decide your trip.

Nine in Sunday morning.. I may have done nothing at home if I was not in work. But I need some space to give me a break. It is surely interesting how my life brought me here, I should appreciate what I have now. Nevertheless, I think I am a little exhausted.